BIG Decisions

So, Jesse and I have been doing the long distance thing for the entirety of our relationship. For the past couple of month we have been looking at the possibility of Jesse moving to Abilene this summer. However, reality kinda came crashing down on us last week and we were suddenly faced with some huge, life changing decisions. Jesse, very wisely, let me know that although coming to Abilene was great in the short term, he didn't feel as though it would be best for our future family in the long run. I'm not even going to lie....I did not react well to the plans I had made for our life being completely flipped upside down. I was angry and very intentionally said some really hurtful things. Suddenly I was the one having to sacrifice and the thought of what I was giving up scared me to death to be honest. Thursday I had a complete meltdown and ended up leaving Abilene at the last minute to go home. Situation after situation kept running through my head--Do I ask Jesse to pick up and leave even though he might end up unhappy? Do I take a break from school and move to be with him? Do we push the wedding back until I'm done with school? I was completely terrified.
Saturday we were able to meet up in San Antonio and make some decisions. At the Riverwalk we talked and came up with a solution that we both feel at peace about. The plan is to still get married in December. In January I will come back to Abilene and be on the fast track to finish school up by next summer and Jesse will move to Uvalde. We're going to need a lot of prayers and a lot of support as we spend the first 7 months of our marriage apart. We know that it isn't ideal, but given our options we saw it as the best decision by far. I haven't felt this much peace about our future in a while. I wish I had some pictures to put up from the Riverwalk but we're so bad about taking pictures. I'm getting better at this blogging thing though!